brannyrocks

I'm feeling a bit blocked, I have this idea for a painting that I want to do and yet, I just can't seem to get in a doodle mood. I tend to get deep in though, just make these doodles, random drawings, of patterns or shapes over and over, yet right now I want to capture those with paint and I just don't seem to be able to. Part of me is wishing I would have saved the ones I've done at work, and that I could just transfer them to canvas, but its not possible because I have this annoying habit of throwing them out. I've been told they have a tribal feel and one of the guys at work thinks I should do them up as tattoo's. Its just had right now, because I've been jotting down ideas, and just wish I could finish this one idea. I'm thinking that I need to get some "canvas paper" to work with, less expensive than using my real canvases, and I could do some trial runs of my ideas.

I've had a bit of paint splurge, buying some liquitex paints, which are much easier to mix colors with. I've been learning how to mix colors that I've seen in the store as well, which means fewer paints to buy and more control over my colors.

just playing
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this one started out as me just playing arround with some blue paint and then I added the red paint, which got me thinking about women's dresses. So I decided to add the old photo of the woman to the painting. I like it but it still feels incomplete.

Well this past week has had its ups and downs. Things haven't been going easy for me. Today I went to the gym. It helped a tiny bit with my mood. I just have to keep going, sooner or later it will help relieve the stress and other thoughts in my head. I get so overwhelmed sometimes. Well I need to go figure out what I am having for lunch.

I am finally settling down and setting up a schedule, for myself, I'm trying to figure out the details but I am thinking tomorrow I willl write down my plans, and then starting saturday I will start and stick to it. Planning time for the gym, art and studying.

I am finally settling down and setting up a schedule, for myself, I'm trying to figure out the details but I am thinking tomorrow I willl write down my plans, and then starting saturday I will start and stick to it. Planning time for the gym, art and studing.

Another day, I've been thinking about a lot of different things, I've been thinking about the different goals I have in my life right now, to get down to a healthy weight, to work on my art, find away to get my work out there trying to make a go at some sort of artistic career, learn new things, become more disciplined at things, so I am able to achieve these goals and other one. Some days life just seems so much harder then I imagined it would be. I want to get back the sense that I could do or be anything. I've been doing a lot of reading, watching and listening, all of which I believe will help me to create this plan for my life and help me to get where I want to be going. I just need to keep working on it, and have enough faith that I will get there. I am trying to focus on the path of success rather than failure. I need to truely believe that I can do this, because that is the only way that things will work out in this life.

I'm carving pumpkins and handing out candy.

Somedays are just rough, right now I want to talk to a friend of mine but I can't.  Which really sucks a lot. Need to get my head sorted about a bunch of things, which I'm not sure what to do about them yet.  I was doing so good at keeping things together, but right now, I'm back to that sense of what do I do. I don't want to talk to my husband about it because I know what he will say, plus I have something slightly unpleasant to say to him, because he wants to sit down and talk. ughh... I need a vacation from my life for a few days.

Well I've decide that I will move my blog here from 360, I was using live journal, which I may still use, or the blogger account that I just created. I guess I will be doing a bit of trying to see which I like best.

So right now I am getting so annoyed because i have this habit of putting things off, I keep meaning to transfer my enteries from 360 to here, but have put it off, so now a bunch of them have disappeared, then reappeared, so I'm not sure what is going on and if i will be able to get them all over here or not. I need to find some more time to do it.

 

So this is the finished collage, I have to take some photos of the other one I've just finished.

I justed started a third one, on a very large canvas, 16x20, and bought 2 more canvases today along with some paints. I didn't think about how much paint I would use up on such a big piece.

 

Collage 2, still un-titled, and I need to add the word love to the bottom right corner of the collage.

I've been working on a lot of pieces lately, in my journals, and on canvas. I'm hoping to start a large canvas this week and get a series of 4 smaller ones as well. I'm thinking I will stick with the heart theme unless something else sparks my interest.

 

 

 Humm... that would be a tricky one, right now I'm really wanting to go so place warm, so it would either be some carribean island or it would be to India. India has always had this strange draw for me, so most likely I pick India. I'd probably take my husband.

My current work in progress. I'm finding it interesting, taking pictures at each major step in the process. I've found a fun way to create the papers that I want using my printer. I love different fonts and scripts, so for the heart I found tons of quotes on love, saved them to word then printed them in fonts and then tore the pages up in different sized strips, then used a glaze base mixed with paint to color the paper. I'm already thinking a head and going to look online for international dictonaries to look up defination of different words and create a new "paper" for fun. 

I did a trial run with another heart last night that didn't look right, it came out a purplish-red, and just didn't look right, but I have an idea to do another collage similar to this one using a blue background and  some hand written words, rather than stencil.

I think I'm on a bit of a heart and love kick right now.

ROB THOMAS LYRICS

"Streetcorner Symphony"

It's morning

I wake up

The taste of summer sweetness on my mind

It's a clear day

In this city

Let's go dance under the street lights

All the people in this world

Let's come together

More than ever

I can feel it

Can you feel it

Come on over

Down to the corner

My sisters and my brothers of every different color

Can't you feel that sunshine telling you to hold tight

Things will be alright

Try to find a better life

Come on over

Down to the corner

My sisters and my brothers there for one another

Come on over

Man I know you wanna let yourself go

Some people

It's a pity

They go all their lives and never know

How to love or to let love go

But it's alright now

We'll make it through this somehow

And we'll paint the perfect picture

All the colors of this world will run together more than ever

I can feel it

Can you feel it

We may never find our reason to shine

But here and now this is our time

And I may never find the meaning of life

But for this moment I am fine

So

 Wow, I think I'm liking this format better than 360, I'm sure it will take me sometime to get it all figured out, but so far so good. I'm sure it will be a slow process trying to move things to here, I may not move some of my entries. I'm loving that it will let me decide who can read these, which means I don't have to think about what I'm writing so much, and if I want to keep an entry private I can. I'm looking forward to learning more about this site. I love it already with the spell check.

Okay so this is what my canvas looks like so far. I'm planning on doing some more work to it tomorrow or friday, since I'm going to work early today and tomorrow its looking like friday.

So my next steps are to build the heart that will be attached to the canvas, I've found a ton of quotes on love that I've printed out in different fonts and am going to tear up and apply to water color paper.Once that dries, I will paint it, using a glaze base. I'm thinking I might do a test run of colors to use, and see how things work out. I was going to use reds, but am now thinking about using the copper color or dark reds, or possible a beige color. I will probably do a couple of tests to see what I like best. I had envisioned it with dark reds, but the color I was planning on using looks like a dark pink/purple color when mixed with the glaze, so now I'm re-thinking my plan. Its funny how easy this piece has been to work on.

So this is a bit of a trial run for my larger canvas piece. it was done in my journal.

So I've gotten a bit further along with my collage, I am doing a trial run in my art journal as well, to be sure it is going to work out as I've planned in my head. So far it looks like it. I got the word, love, added to my canvas, in black paint & gesso, so it looks a mix of black, grey and white. I've also flicked some black paint on the canvas. Its coming along nicely. I'm planning on taking a picture tomorrow.

(I will have to transfer the picture later)
So this is the background for the collage I'm currently working on. Its done on canvas, I started preping it on Saturday, with gesso. I began painting it today when I got pissed off with P. funny how anger can inspire you sometimes. I've got a general idea as to what I want it to look like, so I'm feeling hopeful that it will work out as I see it in my mind.

I'm going to try to take photos as I progress with this one, not sure how it will work out since I broke my camera, so I don't know what they look like until I download them. Its been a real pain. I either need to get a new camera or get this one fixed. Not sure which I will do, because it all depends on money.

Right now I'm trying to pour myself in working on these art projects because I am so close to losing it, with some stuff going on in my life. Right now I am trying not to let myself cry because I feel like if I start I won't be able to stop, I need to find a more controlled way of releasing these feelings.

I've added some cool art journaling and art stuff to my blog roll, they have helped inspire me a bit, while also leaving me a tiny bit overwhelmed, wishing I had the money to go buy lots of different paints, inking, stamps and supplies, but alas, my art budget is rather limited, and I don't really have the patience to order stuff by mail, which eventually I will have to suck up and do, I'm more of an instant gratification kind of girl, but thats not working because there is this one magazine I want that as of yet I can't find it locally,ughhh.. so may have to order it.